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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

15.06.2025 00:42

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I don,t even have a pension.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Would this be the day?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

How can I stop drinking?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My life is so biszare .

I write beautiful poetry .

Why do you write?

When she asked me how she looked .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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But ive been too sick for many years..

I was 9 years of age.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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But it wasn’t much.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She married twice! .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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Ive learnt so much.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

It was going to be , some day.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She loved him until the end.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Im still living with it.

Who then, do I blame.?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

All the time i was locked up.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She wouldn,t have been !

One cannot live in the past .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

So whats the point in blame.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I have no regrets .

Was to survive, this bastard.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was scared of men, in general

I never cut or harmed myself..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She was in good health!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

This is soul school!.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My family never makes their pension either.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I could never make a relationship work though!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

What did i know ?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Especially a lifetime of it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I waited trembling.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was seconnd youngest,

We all went to grammer schools

We were not on the streets..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Comes on , in middle age.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She found it foreign!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was very sick at this time too.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I will be 64.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Put me off passion for life!!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But, we were locked up after school.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And i lived it daily.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He knew the spot.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My mum and dad in the seventies!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I said to her

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

So, i spoilt her more .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I think the readers, may guess!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why did i forgive my father ?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.